As I was sitting the other day and writing on my essay about my life, a lot of things went through my mind. Firstly I started writing on it again after such a long time and it felt good because I was thinking that one day when I get old and my memory goes bad, I will have this to go back to, to look at and remember all the adventures I had. Mostly it will be fun when I'm showing this to my kids and grandchildren and hopefully make them think, reflect over their own life and learn something from it. Not so long ago I learned that my mother and father had written something like this too. I know my mother has, because she keeps it safe somewhere and according to my big brother he has read it. As it goes for my father, well, haven't heard anything about it except that he didn't finish it. Well, I will at least finish mine writing the last words when I'm laying on my dying bed one day and pass it forward to my children. I feel so old thinking like this and I'm only 23.
To be honest, I didn't come here to put a tear in your eye, I just wanted to share something I have learned these past two years. It started with me abusing something, something I don't want to get into in case someone close to me reads it. (It's ironic, being careful writing about private subjects on a social network.) However it started and in the beginning I didn't understand until I was to deep into it. Even though it was a bad experience it taught me a lot, well you now what they say, life is a lesson and you learn it by living it through. What this thing did to me was one crazy experience with ups and downs but mostly it made me confused and my thoughts was very scattered. I didn't know what I felt, because one second I felt good and the other second confused. It didn't only affect me but my surroundings too, but it weren't the only factor effecting my mind, it was also a bad relationship even though even that had good time and bad ones. These factors affected me so hard that I started make up imaginary scenarios and resulted with me almost losing my friends and it went so deep that I fell into depression. It was like a black cloud above my head, following me everywhere I went and affecting everyone around me and worst of all I didn't understand why it was happening until I quit doing it. (Don't worry, it was nothing involving needles or such.) Since I have been clean I've got hard grip around my life and suddenly my mind opened and everything started to make sense. Today I sit here and reflecting over my life and my bad decisions but if it weren't for those bad decisions I wouldn't have learned this lesson or even been sitting here writing this. I'm glad I've overcome my weakness and also proud. My life is looking brighter and my goals in life is becoming more clear and clearer for every day that goes.
I don't know who you are or where you're from, but I hope this helps and you get something useful out of it and don't let that black cloud above your head (if you have one) stop you. Be in charge and control of your own life, it's never too late.
Before I finish, there is one last thing I need to say. Why I fell into depression was because of one simple reason, communication. I didn't talk with anyone about this or let them know why I was the way I was, resulting in people avoiding me. As time went by I opened up about it to my best-friend and after that it got simpler. Another reason communication is important is because I wasn't completely honest with my ex and therefore it ended with us splitting apart, well kind of. When it comes to my ex and our relationship it's more complicated, maybe I'll go into it some other time and then you might better understand my situation because what I've told you know is only one side of the coin for why I felt depressed. You'll understand when I have told you the other part of the story. For now, this is enough.
Yours sincerely
K4W35H
Blogger
- kAwEsH
- “People have said there is an integrity about me, and I think there is. I don't try to follow a trend. I have my own little path.” - Sarah Brightman
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Monday, May 19, 2014
We Meet Again and Again, What a Coincidence!
Today is exactly (accidentally) two years ago since I made my latest post on my blog.
So much time has gone by since then, so much has changed, so many new experiences and still it feels like an eternity since I made a post here.
I have so much to say, so many experiences to share but are there any readers left? Apparently not, but I still have to share what I cannot share with the significant other. I need you to know, even though I don't know you, I need you to know what I know. What I feel and have learned through experience these last two years, has been amazing and life changing for me, literally.
Besides, it's a total coincidence that I'm here writing this for you on the exact same date my last post was published, maybe it's destiny speaking, maybe.
I will make new posts, maybe not as often as before, but something now and then, maybe once a week. Even though I don't know who you are or whom reading this, I want you to know that I'm doing this for me even though you don't care, because I enjoy sharing my experiences and maybe you will find it useful.
I feel different.
Yours Sincerely
K4W35H
So much time has gone by since then, so much has changed, so many new experiences and still it feels like an eternity since I made a post here.
I have so much to say, so many experiences to share but are there any readers left? Apparently not, but I still have to share what I cannot share with the significant other. I need you to know, even though I don't know you, I need you to know what I know. What I feel and have learned through experience these last two years, has been amazing and life changing for me, literally.
Besides, it's a total coincidence that I'm here writing this for you on the exact same date my last post was published, maybe it's destiny speaking, maybe.
I will make new posts, maybe not as often as before, but something now and then, maybe once a week. Even though I don't know who you are or whom reading this, I want you to know that I'm doing this for me even though you don't care, because I enjoy sharing my experiences and maybe you will find it useful.
I feel different.
Yours Sincerely
K4W35H
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Monday, May 14, 2012
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Anger is Your Weakness (Heaven & Hell)
A FAMOUS soldier came to the master Hakuin and asked: "Master,
tell me: is there really a heaven and a hell?"
"Who are you?" asked Hakuin.
"I am a soldier of the great Emperor's personal guard."
"Nonsense!" said Hakuin. "What kind of emperor would have you
around him? To me you look like a beggar!" At this, the soldier
started to rattle his big sword in anger. "Oho!" said Hakuin. "So
you have a sword! I'll wager it's much too dull to cut my head
off!"
At this the soldier could not hold himself back. He drew his sword
and threatened the master, who said: "Now you know half the
answer! You are opening the gates of hell!"
The soldier drew back, sheathed his sword, and bowed. "Now you
know the other half," said the master. "You have opencd the gates
of heaven."
[Art of Pixels]
tell me: is there really a heaven and a hell?"
"Who are you?" asked Hakuin.
"I am a soldier of the great Emperor's personal guard."
"Nonsense!" said Hakuin. "What kind of emperor would have you
around him? To me you look like a beggar!" At this, the soldier
started to rattle his big sword in anger. "Oho!" said Hakuin. "So
you have a sword! I'll wager it's much too dull to cut my head
off!"
At this the soldier could not hold himself back. He drew his sword
and threatened the master, who said: "Now you know half the
answer! You are opening the gates of hell!"
The soldier drew back, sheathed his sword, and bowed. "Now you
know the other half," said the master. "You have opencd the gates
of heaven."
[Art of Pixels]
The Link Between GOD & MAN
Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?
Student : Yes.
Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
(Student was silent.)
Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?
Student : Yes.
Professor: Is satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor: Where does satan come from ?
Student : From … GOD …
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor: So who created evil ?
(Student did not answer.)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them ?
(Student had no answer.)
Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn’t.
(The lecture theater became very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, well you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.
Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class was in uproar.)
Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter. )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.
_____________________________________________________________________
That student was EINSTEIN.
[Art of Pixels]
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?
Student : Yes.
Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
(Student was silent.)
Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?
Student : Yes.
Professor: Is satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor: Where does satan come from ?
Student : From … GOD …
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor: So who created evil ?
(Student did not answer.)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them ?
(Student had no answer.)
Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn’t.
(The lecture theater became very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, well you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.
Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class was in uproar.)
Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter. )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.
_____________________________________________________________________
That student was EINSTEIN.
[Art of Pixels]
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Friday, April 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Music
Who first invented music?
Actually no one ever invented music, because music has been around as long as human existence goes. Music is a form of art, pieces of noises or sounds for example from the wind, birds singing and sticks rubbed to each other. The word music derives from Greek, mousike, which means "art of the Muses". ("The Muses in Greek mythology, poetry and literature, are the goddesses of the inspiration of literature, science and art.")
Music was never invented, music has always been here. Looking out in nature and listening you can hear lots of different sounds. Some sounds sound better when put together. Together different sounds create an art, art which is called music. Today we have lots of different genres in music, to check out the most popular genres click here. (These genres is based on sales of singles, record albums, compilation-albums, downloads and music videos.)
But the question is not "Who invented music?", rather it is "Who first realized that the world is so filled with music?". Well, I guess the answer is the same, because music goes far back as human existence and maybe further than that too.
What is music?
This question is perhaps hard to answer, it's like asking what is a chair? You would probably say an object made of metal, steel, wood with four legs and a backboard. But that doesn't seem like an satisfactory answer, because you want to know what a chair is for. Well, you can sit on a chair to rest your body and sometimes your mind, you need a chair, but not always, to sit on when waiting for someone. Therefore maybe the question actually is:
What is music for?
Music has lots of purposes. You hear music everywhere you go. When watching a movie or TV, using your portable device for music, walking in a mall you hear music. Depending on where you hear music, it has different purposes. In movies and TV the purpose is to create a more dramatic scene, to make you understand that maybe something bad is going to happen or it is used to build up the tension. In a mall music is used to make you feel less stressed so you can walk slowly and take your time when shopping. But in the 00-century, which we live in, we mostly have our own devices to listen to music we prefer and sometimes depending on what kind of music we listen to, our footsteps move to the rhythm of the music.
The rhythm of the music makes us also want to dance and dancing is just another part that has become a part of the music. As music goes far back as human existence, so does dancing. Music and dancing is connected and when we dance to the rhythm of music, we feel different kind of feelings. We feel relaxed, excited and most importantly, we enjoy yourself.
Music is one of life's great gift and I personally can't live without music. Everyday I leave my home, I make sure I haven't forgotten my iPod, because without it my daily life becomes very boring. Music gives my life a drama, my life becomes like a movie, besides, music makes it easier for my brain to think or to study.
"I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we all are touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music." - Billy Joel
Music is also a common language for different cultures, different people, different beliefs to communicate, because all music is beautiful.
[Art of Pixels]
Actually no one ever invented music, because music has been around as long as human existence goes. Music is a form of art, pieces of noises or sounds for example from the wind, birds singing and sticks rubbed to each other. The word music derives from Greek, mousike, which means "art of the Muses". ("The Muses in Greek mythology, poetry and literature, are the goddesses of the inspiration of literature, science and art.")
Music was never invented, music has always been here. Looking out in nature and listening you can hear lots of different sounds. Some sounds sound better when put together. Together different sounds create an art, art which is called music. Today we have lots of different genres in music, to check out the most popular genres click here. (These genres is based on sales of singles, record albums, compilation-albums, downloads and music videos.)
But the question is not "Who invented music?", rather it is "Who first realized that the world is so filled with music?". Well, I guess the answer is the same, because music goes far back as human existence and maybe further than that too.
What is music?
This question is perhaps hard to answer, it's like asking what is a chair? You would probably say an object made of metal, steel, wood with four legs and a backboard. But that doesn't seem like an satisfactory answer, because you want to know what a chair is for. Well, you can sit on a chair to rest your body and sometimes your mind, you need a chair, but not always, to sit on when waiting for someone. Therefore maybe the question actually is:
What is music for?
Music has lots of purposes. You hear music everywhere you go. When watching a movie or TV, using your portable device for music, walking in a mall you hear music. Depending on where you hear music, it has different purposes. In movies and TV the purpose is to create a more dramatic scene, to make you understand that maybe something bad is going to happen or it is used to build up the tension. In a mall music is used to make you feel less stressed so you can walk slowly and take your time when shopping. But in the 00-century, which we live in, we mostly have our own devices to listen to music we prefer and sometimes depending on what kind of music we listen to, our footsteps move to the rhythm of the music.
The rhythm of the music makes us also want to dance and dancing is just another part that has become a part of the music. As music goes far back as human existence, so does dancing. Music and dancing is connected and when we dance to the rhythm of music, we feel different kind of feelings. We feel relaxed, excited and most importantly, we enjoy yourself.
Music is one of life's great gift and I personally can't live without music. Everyday I leave my home, I make sure I haven't forgotten my iPod, because without it my daily life becomes very boring. Music gives my life a drama, my life becomes like a movie, besides, music makes it easier for my brain to think or to study.
"I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we all are touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music." - Billy Joel
Music is also a common language for different cultures, different people, different beliefs to communicate, because all music is beautiful.
[Art of Pixels]
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Quote: Fight Club
Advertising has us
chasing cars and clothes,
working jobs we hate
so we can buy things
we don't need.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
For That Special Someone
Remember that time I told you that it was impossible to describe your beauty with only one sentence?
Well during the time I have got to know you, I've tried to describe your beauty with several sentences, but the best part is, I never run out of them.
[Art of Pixels]
Well during the time I have got to know you, I've tried to describe your beauty with several sentences, but the best part is, I never run out of them.
[Art of Pixels]
Monday, January 30, 2012
Qoute by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
“The most beautiful people we
have known are those who
have known
defeat, known
suffering, known struggle,
known loss, and have found
their way out of the depths.
These persons have an
appreciation, a
sensitivity,
and an understanding of life
that fills them with
compassion, gentleness, and
a deep loving concern.
Beautiful people do
not just happen.”
― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
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